The Godfather

Hmm…….it’s the FaceBook era now…….friendster long dead already, same goes to blogs. I sure did a risky job when giving the “polygamy boom” previously…..temporarily opened up the eyes of sleepy bloggers. Ha ha…..nevermind la…..go go facebook!!

Well, few days ago I joined a pot pet discussion at tutor 1. Again…..about the love-marriage issues. Well, this remind me about a story from my father. When we were on our way to Kuala Terengganu Bus Terminal to send me to Kuala Lumpur, my father told me a story, which he read from a novel entitled “The Godfather”. He told me that this novel is dedicated to people who claim themselves as samseng tahik kucing or jaguh kampong, or jaguh hangat2 tahik ayam or whatever tahik they claimed to be. From that story, there is an important lesson……that is a man’s strength should not be evaluated based on his physical only (don't judge a book by its cover)

The story goes that there is a mafia leader who always being well-known because of his leadership, power, violence, and followers. All mafia in the city won’t dare to do anything even to look straightly at him. He has two sons........we just call them eldest brother (EB) and youngest brother (YB) la………Just like his father, the EB is also physically looks strong, fearful, tall, and “otai”…….far more superior than his YB, one who look short, tiny, immature, wear big glasses, schema and clumsy (always do mistakes).

Hmmm…..just like other people, the mafia leader ages and getting older, and when the time comes, he’s dying. But yet, he hasn’t nominated the replacement of his throne.

Of course!!! The eldest brother had a feeling that it would be him! Because he’s physically suits that position. So, when his father sicks, he take in charge of everything. His clumsy brother just stays aside with his childishness. Knowing that the famous mafia leader is dying, other mafia leaders plan on resistance against the leading mafia group……to take over the superiority. Although with great physical capability, but for being so damn inexperienced, the EB become coward and panic, knowing that everyone is up against him. He doesn’t know what to do.

As the panic time goes, the YB is missing. Where does he go? Nyahhh!!! No body would give a shit about him. Who cares……a few days later, one by one the resisting mafia leaders found dead with many style of dead bodies. Some of them got beheaded and the head is hanging on the main gate of their houses. Some of them got their intestines taken out and being roped by it. Some of them got their bodies cut into pieces. Some got their balls being cut off and they bleed to death…..so many styles. But the question is……who did this? The only one capable of doing this is that dying famous mafia. The EB and some of his remaining loyal followers got any idea on who’s doing this.

Few days after the series of deaths, the YB appears again as usual. His brother makes a meeting to discuss about the hot deaths issue. The YB come close to the group and ask slowly “what’s the matter?…..is there any problem here? You chickens still wanna make coward-styled underground discussion like this?” and then pass by………guess who kills those mafias……….

There are so many guys out there with same condition like the EB. They’re physically big, strong, mature ………but when the problem comes, they become hopeless, coward, run away……just like half-slaughtered chicken……useless. Well, you got a point there. You should be careful when evaluating the guyz out there. Don’t be fooled by those bodies.

Hmm….as for my TWP friends..I believe they are not such people. We may look childish but we have strong hearts and wills to improve. We have from zero to Hero Faizul……from someone who seldom read Quran, now can become a bilal during solat terawih…..(yet still have to improve with his seriousness…hah)……we have improved Isa, someone who previously moderate in academic…...now become superb…(I wonder who is the trigger…..haha), we have pojie who always talk big……but sometimes do big (only when he is serious), we have Faris, a matured responsible man……from a childish boy I known years ago. We have abey mey……best student (I’ll beat you someday….) and others. I’m proud of my friends……ha ha…….sorry if there’s any controversy…..lol.

Getting changed!

Still in progress, yet i'm still trying to improve the stuffs in my blog........gonna add some elements, entertainment, pics n so on. hmm...plus, i need to change my style of writing.......perhaps shorter, more basic in english, less errors and less controversy........lol.

I'm trying to fight against my latest biggest enemy, laziness. hmm.....sure you guyz suffer the same thing, right? well, at least I know.......the drug for laziness is not found, it is earned (tiru ayat transformers).......instead of bothering yourself figuring out what should you do to avoid laziness, it's better for you to do something.......what thing? ala.....anything.....as long as keeping you away from jiwang, sleep, motionless, or anything etc......whatever you do, do try that at home.......ape aku ckp ni????

oh....forgot to say......about my new title....as i've said before, whatever thing that we do on this earth, we must have a goal......as it is pointless to do something without limit or brainless........as for me, i'd rather have someone worthy for me whom i'm willing to work my day off...worthy to die or bleed for ...someone that i'm willing to sacrifice to or someone that I'm gonna make him or her to proud of me.....who? haha.....parents come first, then bla bla bla.......

oh by the way........some of our friends including me are in "no comment" mode. one question buzzing my thought......is it good for us to say nothing in whatever situation (play safe) if we afraid that what might come out from our mouth will hurt someone's feeling.......hmm...why bother talking if you know it's risky.........lol

Best Student.

In this fifth semester I have a new personal goal......being the best student in our batch.....(uuuuiiiiii.....) sounds funny, impossible, weird, shocking and once in a blue moon.....ha ha....no mind la.....it's just a goal after all. It's not the goal that value most....... what we improve, change, experience and face during the journey to the goal are the things that we need to appreciate.....perhaps, everyone in twp should have the same goal as mine.

Well, at least....if I'm not capable to reach that position......one of these names should be surpassed.......who? hmmm.......arranged in increasing toughness: faris, pejol, isa, sara, opie, shaman, chiechie, dayang, ecah, Abe mey........ha ha....don't worry. It's very hard for me. I consider you guyz as special checkpoints to my goal. It's just some sort of dream.....not worth saying it confidently......let alone cakap lebat.

What should I do to make it reality? well....initial steps: be serious in study (so far naver done yet since 1st year), play DoTa less than before (my biggest enemy that keeping me behind you guyz), jaga solat(esp Subuh........tough!!!!), avoid day-time dreaming (2nd biggest enemy since 1st year......some of you might know what I'm thinking of)......,keeping my room and appearance clean, tidy, and good looking as making me comfortable to study (already done)..........hmm....whatelse? gimmi suggestions......

questions: have I done such kind of planning? yes.....in secondary school.......,any success in the previous one? hmm....several times....at least able overcome a person who I admire most in 2ndry school.....ops.......why the hell do I tell this? well, I'm hoping youguyz to have this kind of inspiration........like when we see something dangerous coming to us.....we will do the best to overcome that. Like myself....I might not be able to surpass youguyz......but at least when you know that I'm trying......you'll do the same thing.......there are many problems that might come and piss you guyz off in your lives. You might not be able to face it all alone. But I do know......with a little inspiration, we might be able to manipulate the problems in our lives and change it into opportunities.....well, just believe in yourselves.......for the Godsake!

p/s: 1)please give comments regarding grammatical mistakes...2)jgn sindir2 or pot pet......3)give suggestions and share 4) apply it.

Understanding a woman's feeling

Aiya........I hope this would be the last post of the "love-marriage" series. My last post seems to have a little controversy. Some people agree with "my opinion". And some people don't understand at all. Well, about the 'polygamy' post, I really didn't mean to hurt the feeling of kaum hawa. Yes, polygamy is not wrong. But most women don't agree with it at all. I'm trying to imagine myself as a woman when I'm writing this post.(yarkh......terase mcm bapok paun la pulak)

Can I accept a polygamy? Hell no!!! What would I do if my husband wants to polygamy? First I will try to find is there anything wrong with me that would cause him to do so. If there is nothing wrong with me, definitely, the problem came from him (dasar lelaki miang!!!). Why I hate polygamy? This is because I love my husband so much. So how can I accept he loves somebody else instead of me? It's a very though time for me to be alone while he is somewhere else loving another person. Is a man capable to make polygamy? This is a very hard question. Part of the answer is written in the holy Quran. There is a sentence where Allah ordered male to be fair with his wives. Then there is another sentence saying that Allah knows that a man cannot be a fair person for the rest of his life. So, why did Allah ordered male to be fair but at the same time He knows that a male cannot be fair?

The answer is Allah want a male to treat his wives on a equal ground. Don't make his wives hate each other. Divide his wealth to all his wives. However, it is a fate that the man's heart won't be equal. There must be one of his wives that he loves most instead of the others. Perhaps this answers the women's questionnaire of men's capability in polygamy. Yes, you are right. A man is not fully capable in polygamy. A man should consider a woman's feeling before making any decision.

Why would I raise this trouble causing topic? Well, firstly I hope you all understand that I'm not the one that agrees with polygamy. I don't just disagree but I also hate polygamy. There's is someone who is closed to me that married more than one wife (not my family). That fertilizes a little hatred in my heart to him. At first, I could see a little chaos in his family in the beginning. Then I started wondering what people’s perceptions in polygamy are?. Well, that is not enough. During last holiday, I play Garena (game connecting players all around Malaysia and other countries). I met a Chinese who is very anti with Malay and Islam. I beat him in the game and due to emotional manner, he wrote something foul to me. He said Malay #%$#$%#%$#%, Allah %$$$$% and so on. Then I debate with him about religion. I could answer almost all questions he gave. But when it comes to polygamy, it was tough. I'm still wondering how I can defend something that I hate most but my religion allows it.

When I came back to Indonesia, I asked someone expert about this and I opened the Quran to solve the puzzles. I do have some answers. Those were what I wrote in my last post. Well, frankly, I'm still anti with polygamy. That's why I'm really interested to be part of pot pet group. I'm hoping that I could find some answers. Perhaps, I may not understand women's feeling regarding this issue. But at least the best I could do is trying to understand. The one that we can expect to be responsible is the one that that can understand others (uuuuuuiiiiiiiiiiii).

Feeling like shit when someone quite like me writing such social topic. The person that I was referring to asked me "why not you raise the polygamy issues in your blog? Maybe that would help". Easy talking than doing. I do got some views. Mostly negative perceptions. Well, actually those are not what I was hoping. About the negative views on polygamy, I have plenty on my own. What I need from you girls are some explanations on something halal in your religion but you hate it very much. How can you answer questions like why Prophet Muhammad got married with many wives but only allows his ummah to have four?, do you think Islam treat females like slaves in polygamy? How you expect from a religion that allow you to love only one but allow your husband to love many?If you know that a man cannot be fair, then why your religion allow him to be in unfair manner?. Believe me; I even got questions tougher than these.

To be honest, I write this not as an apology but perhaps I could ask something even better than that, an understanding and some answers (mcm dialog dlm cite spiderman la pulak). How can you help me? Well, just simply fill in the comment section. Or perhaps write something in your own blog. I expect something good from resourceful persons that I know like Opie, Shudud, Fain or even FAIZUL. Thanks.

Yarkkkhhhs over!

The polygamy (another yarrrkh!)

Well.......my last post seems give me inspiration to write this one. Let me tell you guyz something. Before you have a positive or negative thinking about me, I just want you to know that I'm not a good muslim who supposed to know everything about Islam, the one that always go to mosque, always read Quran, always say "Astaghfirullah" or bla bla bla.........I'm just a mere skinny and dumb little human who like to give explaination to muslims or people from other religion who misunderstood about my religion.

Well, the first issue that I want to talk about is the problem that always being discussed when female students in my batch form their "pot pet" group (sorry.......he he). The Marriage. This is a very popular topic since years ago. When they talk about this I'd love to join in and hear their opinions. Every second I feel like blowing my stomach by laughing when I see their serious faces giving opinions. However I pretend to be serious and I usually "release those laugh" in the toilet. That's why U guyz sometimes see me smiling without reason. I'd never dare to say anything in the group because girlz always unite to couter us (boyz). That's one thing I respect about them.

Well, back to the topic, most of the girlz don't agree with polygamy. Some of the non-muslims say that polygamy is cruel and ethically not logic when we're refering to the honour or the right of a woman. Perhaps some of them symbolyze it a legal form of slavery. hmmm........honestly I myself dislike polygamy. But don't hate Islam, a religion that allows polygamy. You know why?

Americans like to think muslims = have many wives, Islam = must have wives, muslimah = slaves, Arabian = sexually crazy.......whatever la you want to say. First, you have to know that Islam do not introduce polygamy. Polygamy existed since thousands years ago. Since egypt, romanian,persian,greek civilization.......long before Islam existed. People at that time married with hundreds of wives. When Islam came, it put a limit. Only four wives. And Islam do not encourage its people to polygamy. It only allows. It is just like a drug, when you need it, you can use it. But don't overdose. When you don't have to use it, don't use it at all.

Actually, polygamy in Islam protect the right and honour of a woman. Maybe I should say there is no better fortune teller than Prophet Muhammad. Just look at the world population nowadays. How many male compared with female. It's almost 1 to 4. Just imagine if one male get married with one female........what would happen to the other three? Remember........women are not spareparts! Well, Prophet Muhammad has been told that this would happen at the end of the world.........there will come a time where men are outnumbered. It's true.....zzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Biologically, females are limited in sexual arausal due to menstrual cycle. During the first to fifth day period, the progesterone and estrogen, hormone which responsible for female sexual arausal is reduced. At this time females are physically, biologically, and emotionally unprepared for any sexual relationship. Well, the problem is what if the husband's arausal came at that time. We heard in male population, there are some people who are sexually not normal. Hypertestosterone, chromosome XYY (supermale), or perhaps sexual psyco........these people are those who need extra credit. Just pity to the single wife to have such husband.(sorry for saying too much sex sex sex.......I don't know other smooth word understandable)

Through polygamy, Islam give a pathway to solve family matter. What if a wife got accident and she is not capable to give birth. what would a man do to have a baby? Take an orphan of course or get married with another woman.If in other religions, you have to divorce first before get married with a new one. So pity. In Islam you are allowed keep the first a wife, give your love to her, protect her and at the same time you are allowed to get married with a new one to have a child. Fair....isn't it? How could a man left behind a weak woman who still need a protection from her husband.

When a couple want to divorse, a man can just simply say "I divorse you with talak 1" then its done. But a woman need to go to the court and make full report bla bla bla bla......and after a complex procedure, it is done. Sounds unfair isn't it? well actuall, in Islam this is to protect females. A male can divorse his wife without saying anything about his wife. So, people won't know anything about this woman. Therefore, in future....maybe there is still a man that can still accept this woman. But a female need to tell everything about her husband to get a divorse so that she will protect other women from marrying this man. People will know about this man, woman will be more careful, and no more woman suffer because of this man. Protecting.....isn't it?......

And most importantly, a man cannot simply have a polygamy. He must be prepared. He must have enough money to support his wives. he must physically ready. be fair. otherwise he is prohibited to do so. And he must GET PERMISSION FROM HIS WIFE before doing so. Without permission, you cannot have a polygamy. So, girlz, actually in your hands lies a power to control your husband. Don't just simply blame male who make polygamy.

It doesn't matter if you hate polygamy. But don't put your hatred in Islam that allow polygamy. I myself also don't like polygamy. But I do understand why Islam allow polygamy. There are some situations that we must consider to put a change in ourlives. It's ok if you don't understand about Islam, but don't misunderstood about it. If I get married, I would prefer to have a single wife because it's very hard for me to love more than one person. And that person is..........ops.....just kidding. ha ha.......to be continued

p/s: maaf jika tersyasyur......sumpah geli dowh tulis mende mcm ni......geli.............geli ......geli......GELIIIIIII!!!!!!!!! aku tulis ni pon sbb si tut tut tut tu mintak........arrrrrggghh!!!!!

What is your opinion about loving each other? (yaarrkh!!!)

It has been a hell long since my last post and i have a feeling that no body reads my blog now. But it's ok.......things that make ourselves fun must go on........well, I have no idea of what to talk about but......emmm........juz talk la....

What is your opinion about loving each other?. Most of my friends here are 'coupling' (I don't know this word grammatically right or wrong). Most of them got their own love story. Sometimes those stories are quite funny. Some of them (maybe most) break with their ex whom they found at old schools and college, and they usually find a new one here. Some of them are still single since in the first place. and perhaps some of them anti with 'couple'. There're so many kinds of people. But as for me, at first I don't give a shit to this kind of thing, but when there are too many questions given to me, perhaps, I should do some homework about it.

I have a feeling that they are not serious enough in loving each other. And when there's a conflict between them, some of them are just thinking of an easy way (but stupid) to solve the problem, simple, just forget each other. hmmm.....I don't have experience in love story since i'm in "single since in the first place" group. perhaps I may not understand these people. but my point of view, when U like each other, u guyz got to be serious. This kind of 'bond' is not something that we can make fun of, but a relationship that we put trust with each other, a responsibility, an understanding, and most importantly something that we are ready to pay the cost of any consequence that might come.

What is the Islamic way of 'couple'?. I don't know what to comment about this question. sometimes it sounds stupid and dumb but people keep asking, so I juz answer la!!!! well, I heard a phrase saying that there is no couple in Islam instead of marriage. So, for those dumb people who ask me this question, I juz wanna tell u guyz that when u love someone juz get serious and make a target to marriage. be prepared to be a responsible person. Don't just eat together, go to cinema together, and sms each other. It's wasting time to love each other but you don't have a target for your bond. Sometimes it breaks somebodie's feeling when you are not serious. I have many male friends that like to make fun of women's feeling. ala.... you know la when males are limited and female are overload. They just use "pakai buang" method. They really piss me off. ape korang ingat pompuan ni xde prasaan ker? Same goes to females. Ape korang ingat laki ni hati solid ker?..........hahhh.....

Is it a sin to walk together, eat together, watching film together and bla bla bla? I wanna ask you back. Do you think I'm a God to know exactly whether what you are doing is a sin or not? well, i'm just a humble human. I cannot judge you a sinner or not. you're muslims. you should know the border of your doings. As far as I concern, when a muslimin and muslimat sit close to each other, but not doing anything wrong, it is not a sin. (correct me if I'm wrong). The sin happens when what u're doing lead to zina and fitna. So watchout what u're doing.

Actually, I don't want to write this post. I swear!! but people keep saying I'm a lazy and useless IMAN (Islamic Malaysia Association) member. I guess it can't be help. I'll do it. It's very very very menggelikan.....yaarrrrkhh!!!!!

Political views in my batch

well, it seems chaos is within Perak political system........well, speaking about politic, I'm so interested with my friend's views. Some of them are very sensitive and responsive about what happen in Malaysia. Some of them don.t even care about it. ha ha. The sensitive group usually form 'pot pet pot pet' group esp after tutors and lectures, discussing about what happen in Malaysia. One of them gives her opinion in her log. These people, most of them (perhaps all) seems to be in Government side (BN). Those who are in opposition side (PAS, PKR n bla bla bla) usually not very active to discuss about politics. I don't know why.

I asked one of my friend, " hey buddy, which side are you?". He reply " Go to hell la politic. I hate politic. you know, because of politics our people devided and chaos.....esp because of the 'ehem' party". Ha ha. This one funny. perhaps, he should lern what is the definition of politic. Another person " hey tut, what do u think about..........?" "this party tut tut tut..........this party bla2 bla2. this party......arrrrgh....." Perhaps if I proceed further, she might explode. Next one " hey man, what do you................?" " I think both sides are wrong. Why don't they just unite and make things easier?" hmm.........no comment.

For me, I don't 100% be on one one side only. I evaluate both sides. Both have wrong and right. There's nothing perfect.We are well-educated people. We are gifted. We have the capability to evaluate someone by ourselves. When it comes to reading newspapers, I don't just read Brita Harian, Utusan, TV3.......of course these medias are controlled by Government. I also read Harakah, Malaysiakni, "CD ceramah". We hear from both sides. Then we evaluate and judge on our own. So, we can see who is right and who is wrong.

I'm back.........

it has been a long time since the last post. Hmm.....I was super duper busy for my final exam. Now I'm waiting for my remedial exam.......and after that.......fly home to Malaysia baby!!!

Now, I want to tell you about poor people in Indonesia. If you go to Bandung by car, you stop at the traffic lights, you will see a bunch of people with many kind of ways (selling, begging, dancing, singing) asking some money from you. I really pity these people esp those who are very old and those who are still kids. The elders supposed to be taken care by their family, kids supposed to go to school. Once, I walked at a small street in Bandung. It was raining lightly and I can feel the cold sensation although I wore my jacket. Suddenly, I saw something like a small stone at the side of the road and a rusty tin in front of it. As I reached closer, I noticed that that "thing" is actually a boy, about 3 to 5 year old sleeping and shaking because of too cold. His shirt was wet and he insert his hands and foots into his dirty wet shirt. Other people just passed by without even looking to that kid, proving that it is common to have such kind of view. I pity for that kid and I inserted one thousand rupiah into the rusty tin. That was the best that I could do at that time.
Few weeks ago, I went to Bandung Electronic Center, and I saw an old man, aged about 70 or above, perhaps older than my late grandfather. That old man just walking around the street and asking for money from the people around him. Well, the poor thing was, both of his hands was degenerating because of KUSTA (perhaps). What was left just the bones and some muscle tissues with scales and crusts. He could barely hold his plastic container where people put money in it.

The point is why these people suffer too much? Is there any hope for them to put an end to this suffering? In Malaysia I've met many beggars but I couldn't understand their life at all. Studying in Indonesia makes me have some space in myself to study the pain of these people. My doctor said that when Indonesia achieved its independence, the population of this country was equal to the population of England (England or what eh????). Now, the population of Indonesia is many times bigger than England. Why this thing happen? community education. Why community education was not done well enough? impaired government system. Why impaired government system? corruption. Yap!!! that's the Indonesian biggest problem. I'm not the one saying this, but my Indonesian friend told me. I'm just doing my job to express his feelings through my blog. We'd like to see the corrupted leaders being kicked to lowest pit of hell.

no more student to Indonesia?

There was a short discussion between organizations that responsible to arrange Malaysian students to Indonesia (JPA, MARA, Malaysian Medical Council) with the students from Bandung. From the discussion, students were informed that Malaysia will stop sending students to Indonesia due to a change in Indonesian curriculum system and that new system need to be studied further whether it is suitable with the Malaysian students or not.

So, there was a rumor saying that no more Malaysian students will be sent to Indonesia. So, what would happen to the remaining Malaysian students here? Are we going to be accepted as doctors in Malaysia or not? as a twinning program student, I don't really confuse and worry about this situation because I will get the graduation certificate from UKM.........plus, we will be having our practical in PPUKM. So, we will get Malaysian MD title, not Indonesian. However, i pity to my friends here who are not in this program.Their certificate, the practical, the experience, the basic science..............all from Indonesia. But, there is nothing to worry perhaps because there's no way Malaysian government will left behind these brilliant students.

Now, for the evil side.........I personally agree if the government don't approve the education system here because there is one important thing that always being the problem of Malaysian students here..........the service.........it's not worth how much we pay them.........a Malaysian student who enter the University here need to pay many times than a local student does. Why? because we are foreign? fine...........screw you!!!!!!......we pay expensively and what we got?.......a broken microscope that need to be shared with 4-5 persons, cheap and broken chairs in lecture hall, fragile table in tutorial room, old computers in tutors which are used only for decoration (so, the tutorial room looked very educating)........limited specimens, frog instead of lab mouse as specimen, poorly arranged timetable that can cause vertigo to students and doctors........and many others.......too tired to mention all of them. When we gave complains during judicium, complains stay there left behind and there's no single act taken to fix the problems............aahhh.....maybe people here won't understand at all. How could you treat us like this......who or what do you think we are? gambling cards? "winner winner chicken dinner".......just something for you guys to get cash?!!!....well, I'm not saying that all people here are that bad....some of the are good......but you know, a cup of black coffee won't change it's colour with just a drop of milk.............hmmm....

it's has been a while

it has been a while since my last post........it doesn't matter......not many people read my blog at all.....plus i'm just doing this for fun and to improve myself slowly........not something that need to be updated daily........so, my 7h34 friends.......you guys got something to say? feel free to share....

I just want to tell my experience of having strange sickness last week.........I suffered from stomach ache with diarrhea and vomit. Every ten minutes I must go to toilet to "fire the m16", and the substance that came out always water and water and water and water........until I could assume that every drop of water that I drank stays in my stomach just for 10 minutes.......and then went to the mangkuk jamban...........

when I ate something..........it didn't even go to my stomach, instead, it came out back just the way it was.........what a pity.......just imagine, how can a 47 kilo person like me suffered like that all over the week...ha ha..........and of course, my weight decrease until 45........and i looked like a sugar can after being squeezed by the machine....ha ha.........and until now I still confuse with the etiology (cause) of the disease...........why did it happened? stress? change my diet? and the most important thing is, why this disease always occur when my weight exceed than its maximum point (45 kilo) ? you know what? this disease gave me something..........a despair.......a despair to increase my weight more than 45 kilo..........oh man....this is sucks.....